Notes & Process
Here's the reason why you'll always be smarter than me. Read on to learn about it.
As I discussed in my previous post, I am a stupid person with good virtues and living in a bad world. It's a recipe for disaster upon me -- and it has been.
I'm a dumbass. I've been this way since middle school, though I hadn't accepted that truth for all but a bit of the last year.
Dumbasses like me can't magically become smart. If, by some way, they're given the option, it will be a disaster upon them, because they won't be able to become the person required to be for the magic to stick.
The best way forward for a dumbass is to be allowed to exist however the person wants to exist, happily, ignorantly if necessary to be so, in order to remain undisturbed and pleasantly content with life. To disturb a person into causing a schismatic introspection is to cause that person great harm, psychological abuse, and perhaps permanent damage to self-esteem and personal perception.
Because the world did so to me -- caused me such damage and harm -- I'm a disturbed dumbass. I'm permanently disabled mentally by my eye-opening, damaged psychology. I cannot be as smart or smarter than you, because I am mentally uncapable of reaching that level.